5:25am – 14th of August 2015
Born on the 10th of December, I am a Sagittarius and I was given the stubbornness and laziness known to December babies. Since having a fresh start and a new mind-set, my life has done a complete 360 and taken me back to the crossroads I recently faced and luckily given the opportunity, I took the other path this time.
On the 14th of July 2015 I woke up at 4:25am and the sun had started to rise with a phenomenal orange glow (as seen in the featured image) so I made a half asleep decision to find my shoes and go on an adventure in this town I had only been around once or twice. I started to run and tried to figure out my way as I went along but my fitness hardly allowed much of a ‘run’, Sore legs and a tight chest guaranteed me a good 45 minutes of a look around this new place. I got home at 5:09am (after having to use ‘maps’ on my phone) and started to tell mum about everything I saw and I think we were both in shock that I went for the run. Pictures shown, distance checked and coffee made we both thought it was a once off.
15th of July 2015 at 3:25am – I woke up without explanation and somehow couldn’t get back to sleep so yet again, I put on shoes and left the house as I did the day before yet running seemed ‘fun’. The sky was a confused shade of purple and continued to change throughout my run until a beautiful almost red colour was highlighting the contours of hills that looked as if they were asleep. I remembered the way I had taken the day before and after watching the sunrise fully I went home and shocked my mother yet again. Spent my day submitting work and thought maybe if i put an alarm on ( Alarms have NEVER been able to wake me up) I’d be able to run again – so i set an alarm for 4:30am and went to sleep with low hopes it would work.
Since the 14th of July after we moved it feels like my life has changed, i am a completely different person. My fitness and health means the world to me, I wake up between 4:30 and 5:00 am without fault every day and my running has improved greatly. The route I started off running was a short 1.98 km and I could barely run 50 metres, as I am today, I am on average running 4.24 kms and I can run most of it, having to stop often but not for long before I start again. The weather is never an excuse, the temperature is never a reason to rest – Once that determination is a fire that’s burning within you, you will do absolutely anything to keep it up, to keep going.
I cut dairy, starch, sugar and oils out of my life as much as possible because of the impact it has on your body and I have started to listen to what my body wants rather than what I think it does. That bond you have with bad food, junk food, snack foods is very strong and has a powerful connection to your emotions I found out. Natural sugars and oils I’m occasionally allowing myself given that I’m on a journey of weight loss (all the bad years impact) and some as good as they are for your body do nothing but bad for weight loss. I am not cutting anything major out of my diet as most people seem to think, it’s all about your creativity with how you cook and what you cook.
On the 13th, 14th and 15th of August I decided to have a weekend of fun, relaxation and a ‘whatever’ weekend considering one of my friends was coming to stay. We ended up drinking far too much ( 6 bottles of wine and 12 tequila shots) and going clubbing, I can honestly tell you that the impact on my fitness and health was huge, not eating well, the second-hand smoke, the alcohol and not exercising. When I went for a run on Tuesday 18th my legs restricted me back to a shorter distance and the experience in a whole was dreadful. Running used to clear my mind and let my thoughts rest for a short 40 minutes while taking me to a happy place but all I could think about was ” Ouch my legs” , “Damn breathing is hard” but I persevered and slowly I’ll return to where I was.
I am more than happy with my life, how I’ve decided to live it, “In order to be happy you need to find yourself” and I had pushed myself aside thinking I was like most teenagers, craving the high and the feel of alcohol. I didn’t need clubs and social events to make me happy but I’m so grateful for all the friends I made in those years of my life, some friends drift away but some keep contact. After moving I lost many friends because of distance – it seems to kill friendships and emotional connections. Positivity surrounds my life and me, positivity is my high, happiness is my alcohol, and fitness fills that void I’d always thought forever empty.
11th August 2015 – 06:23am
If I hadn’t travelled the wrong path and met the wrong people, I would never have noticed the right people and now I travel the path less travelled on and seek my own type of happiness.